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Ahhh sigh... had a rough night’s sleep. But ummm mostly as a result of my own conscious choice I must admit. It was only a few nights ago I indicated that my choice in entertainment with the Normal People TV show was bringing me down in vibration. Yet STILL I made the choice to watch it last night. Always I start with the idea “yes but just one episode”...well…anyone with a Netflix account, or any of these streaming services, and half a brain knows just how extremely naive that is.
Naturally, it was a billion episodes later and getting rather late. Naturally, with all that dark energy I could feel my vibration go down…I’m feeling sad like these characters… memories of how I used to feel with an ex-boyfriend with our on-off relationship over a decade ago were becoming reactivated. This show managed to reflect that 20-something girl I was–insecure and self-deprecating. It was at least interesting to finally see by way of this character, Marianne, just how far I have matured in self-confidence from my 20s. I was finding myself getting angry at these characters for not setting better boundaries and communicating with vulnerable authenticity to their partner. It made me think how much I would love to go back to my 20-something self to shake her and tell her, “girl, you are worthy to be treated with love and respect by a man that knows how to be a real man!!!! Damnit!!!”
But although this was a stark reminder of how far I have come, I must say again just how much this show was lowering my vibration. I could feel it. The depressing characters and low vibe arguments and situations. So I hereby declare this as the OPPORTUNITY that going forward, as often as I can remember to, I will stop dead in my tracks when I know I am doing something that is lowering my vibration! This is my DECISION going forward. On this drama-laden crazy planet you just CANNOT afford to let your vibration slide. There are far too many people on this planet choosing the lower vibrations and I choose NOT to add to that lower frequency. This is why when I became very conscious of how I was feeling I switched to a comedy, good ol’ Schitt’s Creek, which helped do the trick. Especially before going to bed, I have noticed that you REALLY want to leave yourself in a high vibrational place to help set your morning. Not to mention the likelihood of having sweet dreams :).
While I tossed and turned a little bit I did come up with an acronym for myself moving forward that I want to repeat a lot here. Just S.I.T.E and relax (mind accent here), It stands for Sit In The Emotion and relax. It’s a reminder to myself to feel into whatever painful emotion I am feeling in that moment. It’s something I am going to use in moments of anger and sadness as well as the occasional binge-eating spurts and whenever other emotions are needing to be seen. Emotions that need to be seen are kind of like toddlers trying to get their mother’s attention. Once they are felt and examined it’s like they did their job of communication, now you can proceed accordingly. Thanks for reading and sending out love to you!
